Im telling you :
Im scared & afraid.
Im screwed up
Im nervous
Im complacent
Im a failure.
Im feeling lousy.
Things will change.

Extracts taken from the song CHANGE by TAYlOR SWIFT :

And it's a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again
You know it's all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you?re getting sick of it

But I believe in whatever you do
And I'll do anything to see it through

Because these things will change, can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win

So we've been outnumbered, raided and now cornered
It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair
We're getting stronger now from things they never found
They might be bigger but we're faster and never scared

You can walk away and say we don't need this
But there's something in your eyes says we can beat this

Tonight we standed on our knees
To fight for what we worked for all these years
And the battle was long, it's the fight of our lives
Will we stand up champions tonight?

It was the night things changed, can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It's a revolution, throw your hands up, 'cause we never gave in.

Yeah, i find it vry meaningful,
and it totally reflects on us.
We gave up when we did mistakes.
We did not correct them when we are supposed to.
We felt like crap, we asks ourselves, why?
Maybe we're too complacent, maybe we're too scared.
But i guess, we just have to overcome all our weak points,
and even counter them.
Im so sorry, my team that i played like shit.
& i was the one that made the whole team lose.
But things will change.

We lost to nanyang girls' school.

comment / top

So many hot topics coming out.
How to handle man?!
Haha, great that valentines day and new year is coming.
Bad that both of them fall on the same day..
Anw, im super tired now.
Back from the chalet, AGAIN.
Gosh, and i ate DAMN ALOT OF BBQ STUFF WHICH = unhealthy.
I sure screw up the nanyang match alr, sure thing.
Zzz, im so sry everybody ..
Tmr im gna die.
& everyone is happy, except maybe me.
& why is that so?
Cos my life is screwed, up till now.
See, i told ya.
No use lookin' at it from another perspective .
In the end, its your luck.

comment / top

Im super tired.
Seriously super sia!
Just got back from my cousin's daughter's birthday cele at aloha loyang..
Damn far, and quite boring.
Zzz.. Almost everyone there is unknown to me except for my relatives.
Only 5 of my relatives were there, so yeah.. should have brought my laptop.
hahaa, but my aunt and my mum DAMN RETARDED.
LOL. they were like quarreling over one stick of satay and who should go bbq the food.
Damn childish omg,hahaha.
Went home at 10, ohoh, and before i left the place,
there was this worm on my bag, SUPER SCARY.
I was shocked lah..
Then i was oh shit, where isit?!!!!
Then i threw my bag on the floor and ran away,LOL.
retard ! Slept on the way back home.

This morning had training at Pioneer JC.
Wa sai, before i reached there i damndamn tired also!
Train until like shit..
Played with PJC, played like shit also.
I think i can go eat shit during the nanyang match!
DAMNSCARE NOW that xin yi actually hurt her ankle.
The most important, tallest person is actually hurt.
Gosh, i think we seriously screwed.
I pray to whoever, that there may be a miracle.
& that we can play super well on tues.
I pray.

comment / top

Today was not bad..
Got china students come our class again.
Damn funny, they super horny wtf.
Go compare their .. with my class guys=.=
Hahaha, then chem test kinda easy.
Oh maths class made me DAMN FREAKIN SLEEPY.
Gosh, i seriously slept man..
Had light training, then went to orchard.
To study, but i didnt leh.Heh.
Tmr got geog test...but nvm.
Wasted 6 bucks ...DAMN, im seriously short of cash..
OHOH, and on the way to orchard got alot of international sch ppl board.
Damn cool!:D
Went to starbucks at centrepoint till 5.50.
Then after that go the roof garden at orchard central.
So high! Took some pics, nice and retarded(:
Mrt home and took 154.
HAD TO SQUEEZE LIKE WTH.
I had to stand on the steps...
and, got this guy live same block as me.
So cool sia, help me open the door.
Look not bad! hahahhaha.

Netball
I'm seriously scared.
Bout tuesday.
It's like a day that determines our fate..
Gosh, i've never been so scared.
Insecure.Im scared that i will screw things up.
& disappoint my teammates.
But i know, if i put in all my effort and hardwork.
I guess i have what it takes.
& i know that you will always be supporting me.

comment / top

Okay, i am damn screwed today!!!!
Stupid, my passes like wtf crap.
And then i can't defend properly.
I just can't do anything properly!!
Argh, this fckin world is just making me pissed,and more pissed.
Oh, and the BB coach DAMN WTF lah.
Nvm, shall not go into details.
Oh and my friend pointed middle finger at him then he diam.
lol?Match at 2, won 36-15.
Which is...crap?
Haiz, im seriously scared that i screw up nanyang match.
Then i would seriously consider taking my life?
Heh, ate lunch at macs with most of the netballers and rachel
heeheehaahaahoohoo, i wasted money again=.=
Aft that went to vivo with heather and nisha as usual.
Its therapy talk time!
Went home at 7.50 as usual..
Waited like damn wtf long for the damn 198 bus.
Gna chiong AUTUMN'S CONCERTO NOW.:DDDDDDDDDD

comment / top

OMFG.
Can somebody just come and kidnap me and and kill me.
I had enough of this bloody fuck shit already.
Seriously, i feel like killing every single person who pissed me off.
ARGH.My bloody mother,omfg.
Had a bad argument with her while shopping.
I tell you i was seriously damn pissed until!!!!!!!
I wanted to ask her Wad the fuck you wan.
Nvm, i will not smile/laugh or talk nicely to her until chi new year.
Only know how to talk and talk and talk.
I wan buy this she got a 101 things to say.
My bro want that, straight away approval.
Everything i do is just wrong to her.
& worse still, she doesn't even know wad fuck i am going through now.
Wad kind of a fuckshit is this.
I feel like not coming home tomorrow, or ever.
And sch, some parts of it SUCKS also.
BLOODYFUCKMYWHOLEWORLDISCRASHING.

comment / top

"I wanna hold your hand and not let go.
I wna feel like never before.
Like everything is not fantasy."

I feel damn sad all of a sudden.
Hopelessly staring in to this screen.
Asking myself, why?
I played like duno wad crap today.
Its like freakin' crap actually.
Like wtf is wrong with me man.
I sort of gave up halfway on the court.
Cos i was v pissed.
argh, im screwed in every single way,no matter how i look at it.
After the match went to Jurong point anws..
Didnt want to actually.
But nvm, i dun feel like going home anw.
Walked around until like 5.30?
Then i went to this samsung shop to look at the phone.
Then suddenly i was trying to slide the phone then got alarm wtf.
...ohoh, then the apple shop was DAMNDAMN funny.
The photo thing is like omg lah.
Hahahhaha, super hilarious.
Left at 5.30 then took the train to jookoon.
When there was nobody in the train i lied down on the other side of the chairs.
But got some ppl saw cos the train was slowing down .
OH, and then my ball suddenly roll to duno 4 cabins away.
EVERYONE WAS LOOKING AT IT AND LAUGhing.
lol! damn paiseh, have to run all the way there.
Thenthen, me, heather and nisha went to vivo to bubble tea.
Then rooftop to talktalktalk.
Nisha left at 7.10
me and heather left at 8..
Cos v fun to talk ,hehe.
Reached home at 8.45.

comment / top